She sits sometimes in silence,
This woman, this child, this little girl.
She sits sometimes inside herself,
And quietly hides from the world.
She cries sometimes when she’s alone
And doesn’t know quite why.
She cries sometimes on the inside,
And wishes she could die
She screams sometimes till she can’t speak,
But she’s the only one that hears.
She screams sometimes without a sound,
As she is drowning in her fears.
She goes crazy sometimes without warning
But it gets lost amongst the madness.
She goes crazy, but sometimes she welcomes it;
It locks her away from the sadness.
She remembers sometimes long dead freedom,
But she thinks it was illusion.
She remembers sometimes who she was,
But memories mingle with her delusions
She revives sometimes and seeks escape.
But her terror keeps her frozen
She revives sometimes from her weariness
And wonder what path should have been chosen.
She dreams sometimes of her baby girl,
And finds secret solace when she sleeps.
She dreams sometimes when she dares to dream,
But even the dreams are out of her reach.
She dies sometimes, and feels the pain,
But still she continues to live.
She dies sometimes when it gets too hard,
For her secret sins she can’t forgive.
She begs sometimes for mercy from a cruel God,
But mercy seems an intangible fairie tale.
She begs sometimes to be somebody else,
As they turn deaf ears when they hear her wail.
She prays sometimes for her release,
As she lives this nightmare by herself.
She prays sometimes for the child she was,
Thankful that child escaped this hell.
She reaches sometimes for distant hope,
But hope vanished some time ago.
She reaches sometimes for elusive help,
But into captivity she’s again thrown.
She’s desperate sometimes to fade away,
And this desire’s always there.
She’s desperate sometimes for an open heart,
Someone who knows she needs fragile care.
She sits sometimes in silence,
This woman, this child, this little girl.
She sits sometimes inside herself,
And my sister is my world.

December 22, 2001 (22 years old)
…….I love you now, always, for eternity
For Vonnie Lynn Roberts